Great is the day...

Great is the day that one can realize how truly blessed she is. This is a great day.
It has not been an easy year. Bouts of... distance and disappointment, jealousy and bitterness, loneliness and anger.

Inertia: noun. The vis insita, or innate force of matter is a power of resisting, by which every body, as much as in it lies, endeavors to preserve in its present state, whether it be of rest, or of moving uniformly forward in a straight line.

It's a stubborn, palpable force. I've come to realize my life has been a study- example, if you will, of the effects of the concept. Inertia. It's a pain in the butt. I've spent most of my life either clutching the doorframe, white knuckled and dead weight against the drag of inevitable life change... or... pushing, throwing myself, red faced, breath held, sliding against the undefineable mass, trying to force whatever's not moving, to move.

In the end, the inertia of life always wins. Hands down, no matter what.

So, here's to my new mantra of life: It is what it is. (Thank you, Wendy.)

Through being forced to view all of my "creature comforts" of home as cargo, through literally not knowing where home is or how to get there, through wanting something so desperately- to be completely consumed with that desire and not knowing how to keep breathing when the realization comes that physically aching for it doesn't make it mine, through having no clue where my husband is, how he is doing or when I will talk to him/see him again, I've had no choice but to decide what really matters and what is worth my energy.

I have been thrust into a situation of intense growth and self discovery and raw emotional release.

It's not all draining, painful and labored, though...

I've been given the gift of relationships.

This amazing opportunity to connect with and experience so many remarkable, incredible every day people. And, I get to have them all as a part of my life!

I have so many heartstrings... I often struggle to maintain those connections. I'm best face-to-face, I'm terrible about calling, I'm slightly better on good old FB... but that's just because it's instant, mass gratification.

Regardless of my communication shortcomings...

I collect people, relationships, invaluable moments. I am blessed, I am fortunate, it is good.